me and ryan are ok now.

i got a very big job designing a cover for a book and illustrating about 10 pages.
meh happeh.

my cat oy likes to sit on my shoulder....
why? lol

sorry I've been gone.
actually I'm not sorry.
i needed it.


my life has twisted itself into some kind of angry spiral...

Ryan's still up to the same old bullshit.
just found that out this morning.

I'm about to break in half permanently.

i want to give up.

I've been pretty busy working on projects. My main project is a writing project.
:)

Ryan found a new job that pays more than the one he got fired from.
This is GOOD.

My life is looking up.
Tax return this year seems to be amazing.


How is everyone? Everytime I try to check my friends list, I end up chasing after my little one.
:/

i live my life mostly IN second life now.
because...i'm a loser and i'm not doing anything else with my time.

oh well.
plug me in, neo.

my costume for this year is....


bloody pot head!




woot!


not much effort required.

those of you that REALLY know me, know that i have been obsessed with sharks (particularly great whites) since i went to sea world the very first time at age 3.

I was crazy about the movie JAWS by the time I was 5.
I always cried when the shark got blown up.


But now...
there is this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igX0ie4gYwo



I would do just about anything to get this.
Jaws: unleashed
the video game
where you ARE the shark
and you get revenge.



FUCK YES.
why do i have to be so poor NOW!?

I had a dream last night that the world was coming to an end.
I was sharing a place with my parents, carlos and adrienne, and ryan. The kids weren't around for some reason.
We were getting ready for some giant flood and tornados...but then somehow zombies came into the picture again.

Might I emphasize AGAIN.

For 6 months, every night zombies were in my dreams. Eventually it stopped being just about the zombies. They were more of a background annoyance. It usually had to do with relationships and that sort of thing. Meanwhile, undead flesh eaters swarmed nearby homes...destroying the world one brain at a time.

Why has this started again?
Why do I have a thing for zombies?
And why isn't my fridge staying cold?


Damn it man.

someone has hacked my earthlink email account.

i can NO LONGER receive emails at loveordeath@earthlink.net

please send all emails to poison_star@earthlink.net
thank you

i only want one thing for my birthday.